dear jae chun su,

although it saddens me that i wasn't able to find you earlier, i feel blessed to have became your fan, even though it was at the time when dbsk was coming to an end. i have never seen a group so sincere, so genuine, and so amazingly selfless. it is my pride to have been able to stand by your side and witness your rebirth as jyj, to have groped through the dark and pain, and to have wholeheartedly rejoiced in the miracles that slowly, but surely, started to surface.

i don't know what will happen in the future, but at this very moment in my heart, there is nothing i want to do more than to always be standing with you, to shield you from and share the pain that comes your way, and to revel in the happiness and joys that you deserve a million times over.

my three beautiful souls. words just can't describe this bond that we have with each other.

♥♥♥

hahahah, why am i upset? my friends and i were watching ryusei no kizuna episode 7 today.

( Proceed to rant and spoilers )

Yay! I finally had another dream!!

Usually my dreams are really haphazard and usually don't make sense. So I'm not sure the order of events in this dream.

Let's start with the K8 part. It must be because of watching those TV clips of the K8 subgroup PVs for Puzzle. But I dreamed that they were making a PV. I guess I was a bystander on the set? Anyways, they were in a classroom with desks, really similar to the musekinin hero pv, where they're sitting and their desks are facing each other. I clearly remember Ryo, Subaru, and Hina. Hina has his facial hair XD. Pretty uneventful huh? =P

Now on to the next dream ... er clip! Ok, I was in my bed in my room sleeping. It's exactly like real life. And I was lying on my side facing my wall and what in real life is my wolf plush doll. Except in my dream, there's a guy sleeping there. I'm facing his back. So unfortunately I wasn't sure who it was. But I shifted a little and kinda went back to sleep. And I guess amidst this half sleeping half awake state, I realized it was Ryo. I think I had my hand touching him or something. I think it was his butt? XDDDDD OMG! sukebe cici XD. But he moved my hand I think. He just put it back on my side. Darn it Ryo, why won't you hold my hand and go back to sleep! HAHAHHAHA. And why didn't you turn around so that we could face each other while sleeping! AHHH if only I had more powers in my dream. I'm a total dream wuss, like I can't change events or anything. *sigh* And that's the end of my dream! O yea, and btw, Ryo-chan was wearing this while sleeping next to me (the tanktop) XDD:



Credits: dai dassou

i don't think i've watched this whole show *sadface*. i might not even have it *supersadface*. i had this clip of it downloaded like forever and i finally sat down and watched it.

i LOVE the way ryo looks here. of course, he's on the skinny (stick-like) state, but you'll see from the caps later that omg he's hawt.

and this is during pi's sore wa totsuzen, arashi no youni drama state. i really love his hair in there *dreamy sigh*. and i guess johnny's is out of fabric or something so they made dear yamapi shorts instead of normal pants. *points and laughs at chicken legs*. don't worry pi *snuggles*, i wub u of course!

( Caps a this way )

another k8 tour that i didn't get to attend (not that i have been able to attend any T___T). anyways, it's 2008, eito's year! ♥ it already passed but 8/8/2008 was eito's day! ^3^ *chus all my boys*

i've taken some screencaps of the news clips/reports from 20080404 regarding the concert.

( Go here )

i just want to try to capture the highlights of my vids so i won't forget all the cuteness. and i can rewatch old videos and stuff ^o^.

ok, so this is the natsu matsuri nippon no uta. i believe people vote for which artists they want to perform? so hurray for kanjani8! i think one time, shuuji to akira beat them and came to perform =(. sad for my darlin' k8. but i also like shuuji to akira (akira!pi is an awesome character!).

anyways on to this performance! first off we got the medley!

1. naniwa iroha bushi
2. sukiyanen, osaka
3. osaka obachan rock

and at the end of the show everybody sang the smap song. and boy did baru's voice overpower everyone else. but i don't mind, i love babu's voice ♥

( Many screenshots puriizu )

HAHAHA, this clip is hirarious!!!! o hina, you're pretty good at english. i'm proud of you!!! i already do respect you, but after watching this, i respect you even more!

( Screenshots this a way puriizu )

I finally had another Ryo dream. Forgive me because my dreams are really random and incoherent, so there's no story here, but here goes!

Ryo and I are turning a corner. He's walking in front of me. And right when we were rounding the corner, he turned around and looked me straight in the eyes and held his left hand out to me. I happily took it and we walked hand in hand. And this kind of thing repeated again at another corner. And then another corner. Like ten times total. But you know, I'm happy taking his hand ten times! And looking into his eyes ten times! *dies*

What a choppy non-sense dream huh? But I'm a happy girl! ♥

Dear diary,

Last night I had a wonderful fangirl dream of Yamapi! *insert screams* And I was in the dream. So I was in a ... ballroom kind of thing I guess. It was pretty crowded. Yamapi was doing magic tricks for a crowd that was a little bit a ways from me. He had this little triangular object that he was spinning in between his hands, except they were not touching his hands. The triangle was spinning in mid-air with his hands around in it, kind of controlling it. So he was wowing the crowd, moving the object away from him into the crowd. The last part of his mini-show was having the the triangle object fly to a person as a gift.

Then he left that crowd and looked for another group in the room to perform his trick. I was kind of standing alone on the path he was taking! He looked at me *squees* and lo and behold, he was doing his trick right in front of me. He had another spinning triangle thingie between his hands. He was stepping forward (closer to me *-*) and backwards, forward and back. And so when he leaned in close to me, I stuck out my hand and cupped my left hand against the outside of his right hand *squeeeeellllllllssss*! I think he looked at me. I was all giddy from touching his hand. And then rather than making the triangle fly to someone as a gift, Pipi handed me the triangle thing. ^o^ ~~~~~~ It was a little tin house container thingo'adoodle.

I think it was a continuation of the above dream... but I was standing outside the building. And Pi was coming out. And as soon as he came out, I ran up to him, cupped his face with both of my hands and kissed him on the lips *screams* for kind of a long time *screams even more*

I am one happy fangirl~~~.